Stress.
Lately I feel so emotional. I have a list of things that brings me down. Life has been tough than usual for me. I am aware of the fact that other people go through far worst problems in life than me. Still… I can’t help but feel sad, can’t help these tears from pouring. I feel ashamed to cry over Petty things. Makes me feel as if I have a lot of growing up to do. It could be that I’m over stressing… Money has played a great part of it… This year has been pretty tough and it continues to get worse… We still need to find another place to move into…Also my job… Its getting to the point that I no longer want to come back & work there…But I am holding on to it because I have bills to pay. I really hope things get better soon. All of these things are making me feel sick. Both My body and mind… I do hope things get better… I pray it does.
10 years from now.
I hope 10 years from now we still do grocery shopping together. I hope 10 years from now you still tag along to help buy this and buy that, running errands here and there… Still hoping you are still sweet the way you are today…hmmm 10 years from now. Will you still take care of me when I am sick? Will you gladly wash our dishes, do our Landry?? Will you still kiss me before you leave, and as soon as you come home?? I am hoping the answer to all of this is a yes… And I hope we last more than 10 years together… I hope the love we feel for each other last us a lifetime…
Thankyou.
These couple of days I thought I was dying. I was in so much pain that it brought me to tears. I want to thanked u my love for taking such good care of me. For bringing aids to my every needs… I am feeling much better today thanks to you.
Truth hurts.
Discovering the truth brought pains into my chest. Yes it was me who seeked out to try and find something, but after finding it I was brought to an awe. I did not expect this. I did not expect to find that you were capable of doing such a thing. I am bleeding inside. Once Again you managed to break my heart. How am I suppose to pretend that none of this ever happened? Do you expect me to be okay? Expect me to pick up right where we left off? Right now while I’m next to you, I am so angry… I cannot make myself forget or erase how you have wronged me? The times when you made me suffer, the dark times when I was so close to loosing myself you were out and about having your pleasures. I love you with all my heart but you did me wrong. Now you want to try and make everything right…Can I trust you? How or why should I? When all you’ve done was to deceive and lie to me…You, the person I am suppose to spend the rest of my life with? How could you? Your every touch, your ever kiss, now brings nothing more but pains and tears into my eyes…
360.
It was not too long ago when I can say I was a total wrecked. It was not that long ago I had to accept it was over between us. What happened? Or how did it happen that our relationship took a total 360 turn? I dont know how it can happen in a matter of a short time, but all I can say is that I am forever grateful. I have never been this happy in my life. Everyday I wake up next to you is a reason to be thankful I exist in this world. I am happy now, I hope it stays this way. I dont ever want to go back to that past. Right now is where I want to be… I’m so happy to be with you my love, I’m so happy that you are mine and I am yours… I love you so much and it feels really nice to finally be loved back.
